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Self-Love Journal 7/31/16
It’s early, and I just took the dogs out, I am exhausted but I want to have a few minutes to myself before I begin to work on the Walk again, plus I get to do bills today, and I have another project for MedOp that I want to do.
Ugh, yesterday was a 12 hour day, and I got a lot done, but there seems to be so much more to be done. I think my birthday weekend will be my only true time off until the end of September.
I am glad that I will be finishing up my journaling in November and I can see myself winding a lot of things down at the end of the year to take some time for myself, to reflect on what I have learned and to make sure that I am still implementing everything that fits.
Self-Love Journal 8/2/16
I am sitting at my computer desk knowing that I should be working. I didn’t journal earlier today because I got a later start than normal. I can’t work though because our CRM system has locked us out of our accounts and the I.T. Department is trying to get it fixed. I did a few things I could do outside the CRM, but I really need to see my accounts to do anything more.
I am so thankful for the people in my life. Last week I sent Heather the following picture as a thought of the day. Then later that day, as she was coming to see me, she was rear-ended in her car. Thank goodness she was okay, and there was barely a scratch on her car, but it made me reflect on this quote again.
Then, last night, Brooke called us right as we were getting into bed to tell us that she had been in a car accident. Her friend Taylor was driving and they had rear-ended another vehicle that was stopped in the middle of one of our main roads. Thank goodness both girls were okay, although both the vehicles in the accident will probably end up being totaled.
I am again brought back to this quote and knowing that death is not the only way our lives can quickly change. I wonder though. How would we treat the people we love differently if we knew that it was the last time we would ever see them. Would we tell them how much we love them? Would we show them a little more respect for who they are as people? Would we stop trying to mold them into the people we want them to be?
Self-Love Journal 8/3/16
Haven’t felt like myself today, and it is 6 at night, and this is the first moment that I don’t feel like I am in the doldrums. I am sitting outside in my screen room listening to the rain and catching a view of another rainbow. I know I should feel guilty for not doing some cleaning that I know I should do, and I promised myself I will shortly. But, in the meantime, it is nice to just sit and enjoy the rain, the rainbow, and the slightly cooler breeze. Okay, the breeze is really still quite warm, but at least I am not sweating.
I have been upset a good part of the day because I have realized how difficult it might be for me to ever work for a company that value its customers again. I understand the bottom line is important but what I don’t get is that so many companies don’t know that treating people right is essential to having a profitable business. Why is customer satisfaction a thing of the past? How can treating any customer poorly be a good thing? Why is ok to treat a small customer like they are worthless? How can a company expect you to be a successful with selling their products when they behave so poorly?
So many questions have run through my mind today, and I wish I weren’t disappointed in the answers. I love selling. I love building relationships with my customers and knowing that they trust me to treat them right and that they know I appreciate them and believe in my product. My integrity is important to me. However, I also want to find a company that I can grow with and stick with for a few decades. I want that feeling of being a part of something bigger like my grandparent’s generation did. Heck, even my dad had this. He only had two jobs in his professional career. I want that. I want to make an excellent living being valued for my skills and valuing those I work with and what I sell. I feel that I need to write this down and become very clear on what I want. I know that in doing so; I have the power to attract this opportunity. I am open to the industry/product as long as it is something that I can believe in and stand behind. I am not going to just jump with both feet this time, though. No, I am going to do some research first and make sure that it is right for me.
And who knows, maybe my current position will get better. I honestly think that the ownership has everything I want. I just believe there are a few people who don’t understand or value others, and this is affecting how business is being conducted.
Self-Love Journal 8/5/16
Wow, 5 days of this month gone so quickly. Where is the time going? I have been off my routine because I have been extra tired this week. I just think its hormones, but I honestly could sleep even longer than I have been and have been still sleepy when I get up.
Even Heather called me on her way to work and was shocked that I didn’t pick up. I noticed her call at 6:55 and we got to talk briefly before she went into work.
I hope I get my mind together soon because I get to interview Vickie Griffith on her breakthrough the bulge weight loss program that uses EFT.I am excited to hear what she has to say and to see if it is something I want to try at the end of this project.
I have to say I have been off the wagon for food tracking this week as well. I definitely think it has been hormones and will make an effort to get back on track with that and drinking water as well today.
I just finished interviewing Vickie Griffith, and I am so excited. I feel so much better than I have in a long time actually. I feel elated, joyful, hopeful and motivated. Just after a few tapping sessions during our call and then a few more after has changed the energy for me completely. Honestly, this technique pulled me from a funk that I didn’t even realize the depth of being on top of the world in less than 5 minutes. Please, God don’t let me forget to use this on a daily basis again. Help me use this for myself and my well-being just like I eat, brush my teeth, breathe or sleep. It is too important for me and my personal growth to know about it and not use it.
Self-Love Journal 8/6/16
I’m sitting outside on this beautiful and cloudy Saturday morning enjoying my second cup of coffee. I never thought I would be happy for clouds, but it is nice to not be so blasted hot while I am sitting out here.
I get to go in soon to begin work on the Walk 4 Wellness, but I want to sit out here for a little bit longer and enjoy a lazy morning.
I am excited that I get to spend the day with MJ tomorrow. Heather is going to drop him off before she goes to work. He is growing up so quickly, and I wish I got to see him more. With the kids living farther away now and with all of our work and school schedules, we definitely don’t get to see each other as often as I wish. But I know that I shouldn’t complain because I do still get once a week or at least bi-weekly visits for a few hours and a lot of grandparents don’t get that.
I am going do a little tapping before I head in and just sit here enjoying the morning quietness.
