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Self-Love Journal 8/7/16
Woke up this morning super early and started my day cuddling with little man. I haven’t had him for the day in a while, and it turns out he has a cold. This poor kid, I wish his immune system would get stronger. We were going to go swimming but the day was pretty gloomy, and I wanted him just to heal. So we hung out and played at the house and cuddled. He napped for a lot of the day and hopefully went home feeling a little better.
I think that the tapping has helped me a lot this weekend. I have probably overeaten but I honestly feel calm, and I also feel hopeful of the future. I have faith that everything will work out.
Heather is pregnant again, and the mom in me is worried for her little girl that this will make it even more challenging for her to pull herself out of poverty and to finish school. However, there is nothing I can do to help her except to help her plan and prepare in the ways she can. I know that this is a high-risk pregnancy and I pray for everyone’s wellbeing and I know that everything is in God’s hands. I know that 20 years from now Heather will be stronger because of her experiences, and I will be watching my grandkids experience their next stage in life.
Both Gary and I have had challenging work weeks, his even more so than mine. However, again I am not stressed. I know that we are always where we need to be at the right time, and I know that we are always doing our best, and our best is good enough.
I have faith that we will both be able to find what we are looking for in our careers either in our current jobs or new opportunities. We work hard, we work smart, and we are successful. We can like what we do and be appreciated and valued as well.
I think the tapping is helping because normally one of these would cause me to be at least saying fuxx, fuxx, fuxx multiple times let alone multiple things at once.
Instead, I am calm, I am hopeful, and I have faith that all is as it should be.
Self-Love Journal 8/9/16
I sit here enjoying a beautiful evening out on the lanai. The heat has gone down a few degrees, and I can sit out in the evenings without breaking a sweat.
I have been relaxing for about half an hour and am at peace. I get to enjoy it for another 45 minutes or so and then it is time to go in. Gary is working late, and I really need to get a good workout in tonight and work on the Walk.
Is it bad that I have to literally drag myself to work in the evenings anymore? I remember a time when this would never have bothered me. A time when I didn’t take lunch breaks and dinner was just a necessity that had to be done in between work projects.
I am not sure if this means I have finally started to find the balance I have sought after for so long or that I am becoming old and lazy. I often feel that this is the latter but a big part of hopes that this is just misplaced guilt.
Regardless, I really do not have much choice tonight, as we are within days of the soft launch, and there are some final things I must wrap up.
I am really proud of what Xenia and I have been able to accomplish so far. This has been a much bigger project than I expected at the beginning. It has so many moving parts. I just hope that we can keep all of them going in the direction they should be.
I think I will do yoga tonight. That should help me get in the right mood. I think I will use my pocket workouts app and do the yoga poses it shows while watching some of the Olympics.
I have tapped today, tapped multiple times yesterday, had acupuncture and saw the chiropractor. I am doing much better with the tapping and am feeling much more at ease with life. It is hard to explain, but it almost seems like the pathways of energy that run through me are like train tracks with switching stations. I am not sure of the right term, but it is as if I am tapping on the area of the tracks where a train can move from one track to the next. Tapping feels like moving the energy around the body and making sure the switching stations are going the way that is best for me.
Tapping is also a way for me to dispel any negative energy. To get rid of any energy that is not in my best interest. I am happy after all of these years of being introduced to me, that I finally understand that I don’t have to be anywhere near perfect at it to receive huge benefits from it.
I am thankful for all of the EFT practitioners that have guided me along this path.
Self-Love Journal 8/10/16
It’s Wednesday morning, and I am feeling tired but good. I worked until 9:30 last night on the Walk 4 Wellness and that meant I didn’t get to bed til later after I had wound down and watched the USA win some more gold medals.
I am sleepy today but wanted to wake up early enough to have some me time before my 7:45 conference call with Jean and Sharon to go over stuff about the walk. We talk every Wednesday morning to update each other on what we have done and to get each other’s opinions. I accidentally called Sharon last night, and we talked for a while catching up personally. I love these ladies. They have the biggest hearts and are always willing to help out and learn something new. I am proud to still be a part of their team.
We have just a few kinks to work out still, and we will be ready for the soft launch. I am so excited and will be spending the weekend working on the next step and also contacting my personal team recruitment members. We have done so much with World Wellness on a shoestring budget. I know that, even though our budget will still be small in the scheme of things after the walk, to us it will be so much more than we have had. I am excited to see what we can do with it
I did my yoga last night and some more tapping before my workout and before I did some more work on the Walk. I am still amazed at the results. I wonder if I kept this one thing up and began meditating a little more consistently how my life would change. It is an interesting concept.
I am doing well now, but there is so much I still want to do. I know that I have more to give and that I am not yet the best version of myself. Maybe I am closer now though to finding out whom that person is.
Self-Love Journal 8/12/16
I am super excited. I was inspired last night by the idea that seems like it may be the answer I am looking for in my job. It doesn’t require a career change, and it should take the pressure off of us in knowing that we are not in the careers that are perfect right now. I can’t share anymore right now, but I do look forward to exploring this possibility.
Self-Love Takeaway
- The Emotional Freedom Technique, Tapping needs to be a consistent tool that I use to help me fully achieve my intentions and my goals easily and quickly.
