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Self-Love Journal 10/28/16
I am slow going today. It is only 6:20, but I had wanted to start journaling right away because I have an 8 am interview for World Wellness and I want to meditate still and run before hand.
Yesterday was a very good day sales wise and very productive. I am sure today will be the same. I have a lot to get done and a lot of volume to sell because most of my sales on Monday will not count toward this month’s goal. I wish I had made goal earlier but I am not beating myself up for it because I traveled so much this month, we had the hurricane, and I was out for Gary’s surgery, plus I had 2 in service days for a client. Even though I worked on a lot of these days, it is not the same as being in the office. When I make goal today, I will be proving that I can make goal early every month.
I have faith that I can do this with some help from God and my angels. I keep seeing the numbers 1:11 and 11:11 which remind me not to worry that everything is as it should be and I am on track.
I think having trust is the hardest part, but I can do this. I can have faith that I am allowing the universe to support me with my goals. I open myself up to more success, love, and abundance. I commit to allowing myself to operate in the zone of genius.
I am thankful for my friend Jen.
I am thankful for my friends Jean and Sharon.
I am thankful for my friend Chauntel.
I am thankful for Gary.
I am thankful for our kids.
I am thankful for my guides and angels.
I am thankful that I reach my sales goals easily.
I am thankful that I am naturally thin and I easily release any excess weight.
I am thankful that I am upgrading my mental beliefs and habits to serve me better and become aligned with my dreams and aspirations.
Self-Love Journal 10/31/16
It is Halloween morning. I had a great weekend with Gary. He looks so much better. His skin color is back to normal; he is sleeping more, and he is almost finished with this dang cold.
We went out to breakfast and to St Augustine on Saturday. We had fun and had tarot card readings and a few beers overlooking St. Augustine. We talked about ourselves and what we want to see for our careers next. What has been holding us back and our strengths as well? We went to a beach in Northern St Augustine and saw the damage that Hurricane Matthew did to so many of the houses there and then we finished the night off with Hibachi. It was a great day, and I enjoyed it so much.
My Tarot reading was a three card spread for the past, present, and future around my work.
The past was the 7 of wands reversed. This is about indecision and anxiety.
My present is the 4 of Cups reversed – this card is about getting out of a self-imposed rut and believing in myself, counting my blessings.
My future was the 3 of Cups, and it is about reunion and finding success with work.
Sunday we went on an early morning walk to see the sunrise. It has been a long time since Gary has felt well enough for that. We came back and did a huge shopping spree for groceries and then came back to watch football and work on some individual projects.
I enjoyed my weekend with Gary tremendously and am happy that we will be able to enjoy more of these in the near future. Gary goes back to work today, and I have a lot to accomplish.
I haven’t met my goals yet, and it is the last day of the month. I have thought a lot about why I haven’t met my goals early, and I am not going to get down on myself. I know that I can do this.
This weekend I realized through some health challenges that I have to let go of the anger that has built up inside of me over the last several months towards my ex. I thought I had gotten rid of all this anger but I can tell now that I have not.
This is something I will need to work on at lunch today.
Tonight it is trick or treating. 🙂
Self-Love Journal 11/1/16
WOW, the first day of November. It is getting cooler out in the mornings, but we are still getting to the mid-80s during the day.
Heather and MJ came back from South Carolina last night. MJ had grown so much in the past few weeks. He is such a happy kid, and it was a lot of fun to watch him trick or treating last night.
Today I am going to spend it working on releasing my anger and forgiving.
I have tapped, journaled privately and used Louise Hays forgiveness scale. I still have some more work on this, but I am proud of myself for doing the work that I have.
I am going to meditate now and then I am going on a run.
Self-Love Journal 11/2/16
Yesterday was a good day all in all for work, and I had a nice evening with Gary. My run yesterday was 3.2 miles. This is the longest that I plan on running right now since the last time I felt like running was about 5 years ago when I was training for a marathon with Jen. I got to 14 miles and decided I hated running. I am enjoying it again, but I do not care to ever run farther than a 5k. I have some work to do on my time, but I don’t ever expect to be fast. I will be thrilled if I can whittle my time to around 12 minutes a mile. Right now I am pleased with under 15 minutes a mile.
I am super proud of myself for not eating one bite of candy this Halloween. I haven’t even had much of an urge which is a great thing.
I have a busy day starting at 7:30 and I had to help Heather get MJ ready so she can head to the doctor for a checkup.
Self-Love Journal 11/3/16
During the last few months of the self-love journal, I have learned so much. I think I will go back through my takeaways and see which ones are the most applicable now for me. I wonder if there is any way to categorize them.
I now realize that my mind was my biggest obstacle. The stories I told myself about my self-image, my weight, and my age are what has kept me stuck for so many years. Even though the self-love journal is ending, I know that my personal journey is a long way from ending itself.
I still have to release expectations and find forgiveness for another person in my life. I also would like to get back on track with my extra workouts, tapping, meditations, and fasting schedules.
I am still doing these, but I am much more sporadic than a few weeks ago. I am on pace with my runs, though, and I am still doing well on my food choices. I stop before I finish my plate. I might be satisfied a few bites before I do stop, but at least I stop before I am stuffed. I am still doing one meditation per day, and I would like to do a little extra learning as well.
I feel better today and not as grouchy or sad as I have the last few days. I know though that I am allowing Heather’s actions and words to affect my day and I just have to release any expectations of what she does and who she has become. It deeply saddens me but she is 22 now, and she is an adult. I can’t live her life for her, and she is the one choosing to live a life of poverty and difficulty. I have to remember that this is her journey and that it is up to her to choose how she wants to live it.
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