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Self-Love Journal 1/15/16
It is Friday night and we are headed to dinner. Brooke is driving and I realized that I didn’t journal this morning.
It is two days before our cruise. Yay! If things go well. Tomorrow might be my last day of work for 8 days. I doubt that will happen but who knows. Maybe 🙂
I have worked a lot the last few months on accepting myself and I feel pretty good about that. What I have had a hard time recently is accepting others. It is really hard to watch someone you love continue to live in denial and lies. I do not do really well at keeping my mouth shut and I have noticed that I am getting angrier and angrier at this situation because I feel so frustrated and helpless. I realize that I cannot live someone else’s life and I need to stay out of things that are not my business and to find acceptance here as well.
Louise Hay had a very appropriate quote for me this week, “It is hard enough to make changes when we want to, but to try to make someone else change when he or she doesn’t want to is impossible.”
I have learned acceptance of many things and people over the years but accepting the decisions of those we have raised is proving difficult. What I need to realize though is that if I don’t accept those decisions than I can’t accept the person. As a mother, this is not an option. I have to learn to accept even if I don’t approve. I have to learn to guide without intruding. I have to remember that I can unconditionally love the person, even if I do not love the actions.
I was going to journal daily while on vacation but as you will see from the following entries that I decided against that. I only journaled a tiny bit but for the most part, I decided to take a vacation from everything. I was tired of working so hard and needed a break. Unfortunately, sometimes after we stop a routine, it is hard to start that routine back up again.
Self-Love Journal 1/19/16
Oh, what a great vacation so far… I am sitting in a sun chair looking out over the Gulf of Mexico as we travel to Grand Cayman. The music is rocking and Gary is snoozing and I was reading up to a minute a go.
It is nice just to thoroughly relax in perfect weather and perfect company. I love the time we have together. It is peaceful and happy. Exactly what we both have needed, even though I feel it going by too fast already.
Tonight is a formal night. I look forward to getting dressed up. 🙂
