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Self-love journal 11/21/15
I am having a hard time getting motivated today. I wish that I could just play hooky and not work again, but that is not possible. I have a lot to do for work and I really have to record the audio for Gail’s book on 360menopause.com. Plus I want to finish painting our stairwell and bathroom. That project was never finished when we moved in and I want to do that so in the next few weeks we can get all of our trim touched up and paint the banisters. I would like to have this done by Christmas. If we do this and fix the screen in the screen room the only things, we will need to do is have our TV and fans hung and redo the wallpaper border in the downstairs bathroom.
Gary is getting ready for work, Brooke stayed the night with a friend and I am sitting downstairs looking at the gloom of the day. It is raining and we have a cold front coming through. Tonight is supposed to be in the 40s. I know that this is warm compared to a lot of the country but it hasn’t been even close to this temperature in Jacksonville since last year.
I wish this was a three day weekend. Then it would be absolutely perfect.
Self-Love Journal 11/22/15
I was going over my notes from the book Life Loves Me and one thing in particular that I wanted to explore more is “What good things could happen if I let life love me even more?” To open the door and let my soul lead the way. To open my mind and let the light in. To open my heart and trust in love to take me where I need to go.
Louise Hay says to repeat the following ten times, “One way I could let life love me even more right now is…”
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to make more time for me.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to take the first hour of each day for me. Strictly for me – writing, meditating, exercising.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to schedule another massage.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is spend more time outside.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to not promise my clients so much for work.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is not to work later than 8 at night and not to start work during the first hour I wake up.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to schedule a trip to the beach.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to meditate more.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to go on more date nights with Gary.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is to spend more time with Heather.
- One way I could let life love me even more right now is not to worry about my sales.
Self-Love Journal 11/23/15
Here is an excerpt from Louise Hay’s book Heart Thoughts
Trust that your inner guide is leading you and guiding you in ways that are best for you and that your spiritual growth is continuously expanding. No matter which door opens or which door closes, you are always safe. You are eternal. You will go on forever from experience to experience. See yourself opening doors to joy, peace, healing, prosperity, and love. Doors to understanding, compassion, and forgiveness. Doors to freedom. Doors to self-worth and self-esteem. Doors to self-love. It is all here before you. Which door will you open first? Remember, you are safe; it is only change.
I trust my angels and I trust my inner guide. However, it is easy to get caught up in the world and forget who we truly are and that we are safe at all times. That when we allow joy, peace, healing and prosperity into our lives then that is what we will find. We get what we expect out of life. When we expect the best, we get the best. When we expect the worst, then we will get that as well. We always get what we expect. We can walk through whatever door we choose to at any time. We just have to choose it.
What we expect is different than what we choose. I know that we always get what we focus on. If we focus on our fears than that is what we will see show up in our lives. If we focus on the good, then we will see that instead.
This is even clearer now as I am approaching my third month with this project. So many things have changed and the reason why they have changed is because I chose to walk through the door of self-love. I choose each day to work on my thoughts, my feelings, my behaviors and my habits. Some of these behaviors that I am changing have been around for a long time. They are not easy to let go of and I do relapse. However, a lot of what I am doing is sticking and it is making my life better. I feel better and I like myself more. I have less stress and I judge myself a lot less. I am only 20% through this project and I look forward to seeing the progress that I will make during the rest of it.
Self-Love Journal 11/24/15
During the month of November I think we all think a little more about what we are thankful for in our lives. There are so many things in my life that I am thankful for.
I am thankful for Gary in so many more ways than I mentioned before. He truly is the perfect partner for me. I love to cook with him, I love going on our date nights and I love talking about what we want out of our lives.
I am thankful for my Mom and my sisters. We live in different parts of the country, but I love it when we can get together or catch up on the phone. Life is interesting because we are all so different and have such different viewpoints. However, we respect and support each other through all of our endeavors.
I am thankful for my friends – Chauntel, Jen, Jean, Sharon, and Claudia. I know that I can count on each of these ladies without a doubt. They love me for whom I am and never expect me to be anything but me. They are always fully supportive and I love them for exactly who they are.
I am thankful for my customers. I am always learning more through working with them and I am grateful that they value what I bring to their practices.
I am thankful that I live in Jacksonville, Florida. It is warm here for a lot of the year. The beach is close and I am surrounded by water in ponds, rivers, and the ocean. Every day I see multiple bodies of water and as a cancer baby I am very grateful for this. I crave sunshine and water. With these two things, I am one happy girl.
I am thankful that I do well financially and that I have very little debt. I am grateful that I can do what I want to do for the most part and not have to stress over finances.
Self-Love Journal 11/25/15
Last night we had a baking night. Heather and MJ came over and had dinner with us and joined in the fun. Gary and Brooke made an apple pie and apple crisp. Heather made a pecan pie and an ice cream cake. I helped out when needed and played with the baby. He is getting so big. I can’t believe that in less than 2 weeks he will be six months old. He is playing a lot more and exploring his surroundings. He is a happy baby and I love him so much.
Today my one appointment got canceled and most of the offices I was in this week were closing on Wednesday so I am going to make it an office day.
Gary has to work late tonight and Brooke is going to her moms for part of the day. Heather and little man went home early this morning. Marcus came home last night and they wanted to spend the day with him.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and it will be a wonderful day.
Later———————-
I have had a fall back this week. I never moved forward in my tapping course that I started and I have not been getting my 30 minutes of movement in every day. I need to change that beginning tomorrow. I can’t really say why except that it has gotten chillier at night and I haven’t wanted to go outside and go walking. Plus Gary has been working later and I haven’t felt like asking him. I need to figure it out, though. It just goes to show that how a change in weather can affect how we take care of ourselves without the proper planning.
So tomorrow if Gary doesn’t want to go for a walk in the morning then I will do the treadmill when I wake up. I am going to Jen’s on Friday so I will get up and workout first thing and then get ready to go to Jen’s. I don’t have to be out of the house until 7:30 or 8. If I am working out by 6, then I will be in good shape. Saturday and Sunday I will go on walks during the day before Gary gets home.
Self-Love Journal 11/26/15
It is Thanksgiving morning and I slept in til about 7:30. Since we didn’t go to bed til about midnight, I guess it really wasn’t sleeping in.
Last night Brooke and I finished our Thanksgiving baking. We made cinnamon rolls for breakfast. We will bake them today but boy they look really good. I bought gluten free cinnamon rolls for me, but they don’t look nearly as tasty. I also have a gluten free apple pie for later. Next time we will make these ourselves. However, the gluten-free pie crust didn’t look really good and I wasn’t sure about the conversion for the recipe to make it from scratch. I also didn’t want to add 2 more things to our list to bake.
I am going to do my best for this to be a gluten free day for me. Maybe next time we will be able to add some additional gluten-free items to our holiday dinners. The stuffing will be gluten free this time, though and I will have my gluten free cinnamon rolls for breakfast and the pie for dessert.
Snickers got Gary up early again this morning. Now he is lying on the sofa next to me trying to catch a few minutes of rest before our day begins. I had thought about going on a walk first thing, but I know that if I did he would get up and go with me. He looks like he needs more rest, though. He had a long day yesterday and he has to work all weekend. I want him to feel rested today.
This is our first holiday in our new place. I am really excited to create new memories of our melded family. It will be our second Thanksgiving together but our first one with ALL of the kids and our first one in OUR home.
Gary looks like he is ready to get moving so I think we will go for a walk quickly before we have to start our cooking.
Self-love journal 11 / 27 / 15
- I am grateful that we got to have Thanksgiving dinner with our entire family. All of the kids and grandkids were there.
- I am grateful for all of the Christmas gifts that we were able to buy last night.
- I am grateful that Gary and I got to go on beautiful walks yesterday. And then on one of those walks we got to bring a little
- I am grateful that on several occasions when I went into the room that MJ was in and somebody else was holding him that he held out his arms for me to hold him.
- I am grateful for the time spent last night with Brooke after everyone was gone and Gary had gone up to bed.
- I am grateful that I get to spend an office day with Jen and Jean today working on Beautycounter.
- I am grateful that it is a beautiful day and that I got to listen to the book, Life Loves Me on my drive to Jens.
- I am grateful that I saw that beautiful rainbow in my rearview mirror just a minute ago.
- I am grateful that I have a nice comfortable car to drive in.
- I am grateful that I remember that everything happens for a reason. Everything in life happens to help us remember our true essence.
- I am thankful that I trust in life and that even though life is constantly changing that I will always be taking care of and that something new and better is always happening for me. Life is happening for me, not to me.
- I am thankful that my body is a mirror image of my thoughts and my beliefs.
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I am writing this on my way home from Jens. We had a very productive office day. I always enjoy these days because we can spend some time catching up on each other’s lives, but then we are super-duper productive as well and get a lot done for our Beautycounter businesses. The great thing is, is that we do all really love the products and the company’s mission: to get beautiful and safe products in the hands of everyone. It is amazing at how much poison is in the products we put on our bodies. We literally put on hundreds of chemicals every day that are known to cause allergies, asthma, learning disabilities, cancer, and infertility.
Yet we trust our government not to allow companies to put stuff that would harm us in our skin care products. This is such a laugh because they are not there to protect the consumer. The United States has not banned chemical out of our products since 1938 and only ban 11 chemicals total; yet in the European Union they have banned over 1300.
These chemicals get in our body through our largest organ, our skin, within 28 seconds. The accumulation of these products over our lifetime is extremely toxic and difficult for our bodies to eliminate. Plus many of these ingredients cause aging which as women is exactly what we are trying to avoid.
The reason I love Beautycounter so much is that they are dedicated to never using ingredients that are harmful to us. They have a never list of over 1,500 ingredients. I know that I can safely use any product in their line and have it be safe and have it work for me. Another one of their qualifications is that the product must perform.
I am excited because they have so many holiday gift sets that come in the gorgeous, high-quality red boxes. I am going to give them out to some of my best customers with Designs for Health over this next month and also to my friends and family.
I have a pretty big to-do list still to get a couple of things launched that we put in place today. I also have to do the work for the Self-Love Project. I didn’t get it all completed today because I wanted to get to Jens early. I would normally have done it last night, but it was Thanksgiving and that was family time. It was the first true day off that I have had in a long time. I will work on it tomorrow and I am not even sure anybody will notice that it was late. Hopefully everybody is enjoying their Black Friday shopping and spending more time with their family.
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