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Self-Love Journal 5/17/16
Louise Hays quote today was,
“I am willing to release old negative beliefs. They are only thoughts that stand in my way. My new thoughts are positive and fulfilling.”
So releasing old negative beliefs would be any beliefs that keep me from being my best, most incredible self. For me, these are beliefs that I can’t do something or that to obtain something that it must be difficult.
So changing my story from focusing on difficulty and failing to easier and successful would look like this.
With reasonable effort, I can succeed at anything I want to. Success does not have to be hard. I am committed to what I set out to accomplish. I am focused and have the motivation to do what it takes to succeed in my career, taking care of myself physically and emotionally and in building meaningful relationships with my family and friends. Every day, I willingly take positive steps towards my goals. I acknowledge that any setbacks I experience are just set-ups for bigger and better successes.
Self-Love Journal 5/18/16
I feel out of sorts today. I don’t understand why. There is nothing bad that is happening in my life. I have no problems so to speak of, and I have been taking care of myself by sleeping, eating and working out regularly. I guess I will just let it be, and hopefully, I will get out of this funk soon. This is so at odds from where I was at yesterday. I just have to remember that I am just stepping back and recharging for an even better mindset.
Self-Love Journal 5/19/16
I am so happy that I woke up in a better frame of mind. Yesterday was awful. I felt so anxious and grumpy. That is so unlike me. I am sure it is because I started that time of the month. Which is good and bad? Good because that is 2 months in a row and it means menopause is that much farther off. Bad because Gary and I are headed out of town this weekend and I don’t want to be moody, depressed or angry.
I have definitely gained weight again. I guess it has been about 10 pounds since I began these workout challenges. Some of it is definitely muscle weight. I can see some changes below the blubber and know that a lot of my clothes fit better because of it. But it is still depressing as well.
It does keep me focused on the reason for this journal, though. How can I love myself regardless of what I weigh and what time of the month it is or how emotional I am? I saw someone recently who was similar in weight and thought she looked beautiful. I think that is a step being able to see others in a more positive light.
My calendar saying today is “The way ahead is clear and free. I give myself permission to move out of the past with gratitude and into a joyous new day.”
I am grateful that we are going to Nashville this weekend. I am thankful that I like my job. I am thankful that I have been consistent about working out lately. I am thankful my body is getting stronger. I am thankful for the people in my life.
Today is going to be a long day for work and meetings, so I best get ready.
Self-Love Journal 5/20/16
Well, we started this day at 4 am with hardly any sleep and headed to Nashville. We spent the day touring the Ryman Auditorium, buying me new boots, eating ribs, and drinking beer. Then we checked in at 3, took a much-needed nap and now we are getting ready to spend the evening on Lower Broadway bars hopping all of the honky tonk bars. 🙂
I am determined to take some pictures tonight and not be worried about looking fat. I am just going to have fun with my baby.
Self-Love Journal 5/21/16
Last night was so much fun. Dinner was at a fabulous Mexican restaurant, and then we spent the rest of the evening on lower Broadway and bar hopped up and down Honky Tonk Row. We spent a lot of the evening at Honky Tonk Central. It is 3 stories and has different bands on each story. Then we finished the night watching a band playing a lot of oldies but goodies.
Today we are going to head out to the Loveless Cafe and then walk over to the Pantheon and tonight we will be going to the Grand Ole Opry.
I did my workout this morning, and I have rest days that I have saved up from now until Monday. Woohoo!
