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Self-Love Journal 5/30/16
It is Memorial Day morning, and we are headed to the beach on Little Talbot Island with Brooke. It will be an excellent start to our day, and then we will finish the day with a barbecue and celebrating MJs first birthday. He doesn’t officially turn one until June 5th but with everyone’s work schedules, it is easiest to celebrate today. Plus a friend of Heathers from Leesburg and her baby girl will be able to join us.
I hope to get a bit of a tan today. I have some white legs and white belly.
I am willing to let miracles happen in my life and learn to view myself with kindness and love.
Self-Love Journal 5/31/16
MJs first birthday party was a success. But how could it not be, he is only 1…lol. We had a fun evening though. Gary barbecued and we had all of the kids together at the house celebrating along with Marcus’ grandpa and Kim, Matt and Emma.
Today it is time to get back to work and to also workout and burn off that small slice of cake that I ate.
Self-Love Journal 6/1/16
Whenever I get disappointed in myself or my accomplishments, it helps me to remember that God is the ultimate planner, and the dreams and goals I have are small in comparison. To remind myself that with God’s plan I can become better, and I can accomplish greater things. God’s plan and my plan may not always be the same thing but with a little bit of trust, my life continues to become better than anything I could plan by myself.
This helps me remember to be grateful for the opportunities in my life and to be grateful for all my successes no matter how small they many appear. My life is to learn to be better a little bit each and every day. To give more of my authentic self to myself and others. To be willing to risk giving away kindness, friendship, and my love even though I might get rejected. I don’t mean this in a romantic sense even though there have been times when that was the case.
However, if I look at some of my other relationships, I see that I often do not give all of myself. I see that I hold back a little part of me because I fear rejection. I know that I also may do this in other ways in my life. Holding back a little part of me keeps me in the shadows. It keeps me out of the light and therefore if I do get rejected it is easier to hide rather than baring my soul and sharing all of me.
Becoming too exposed can lead to too much pain. I see that some of the rejections I have had in the past have shaped me and have led me to protect myself.
Learning to let go and let God lead is not easy. To trust in God’s plan and to be authentic all of the time takes vulnerability and courage. It is something that I hope I can emulate someday.
Self-Love Journal 6/2/16
Acceptance comes up so much throughout this journey. In this quote I find another reference reminding me how important it is to accept all of myself and the promise that when I do, I will find myself whole and healed.
Accepting all parts of myself is not easy for me. It is not that I believe I am a bad person. I know that I am not. I know that in 90 percent of situations I always try to do my best. It is just that like everyone else in the universe I don’t always know what is best even if I think I do. I make mistakes, and I wish sometimes I can have a do-over. I know in one aspect that there are no do-overs, and yet I also know that every day of every moment is a do-over. I also know that life is full of contradictions like this.
Acceptance of ourselves and others during the good times is so easy it can be effortless. However when we have a little bump in the road or some cases a huge boulder to climb acceptance of what is happening, acceptance of our self or acceptance of someone else can seem damn near impossible.
I guess it is in the daily, weekly or yearly do-overs that we hopefully find ourselves discovering a little more acceptance of all things.
Self-Love Journal 6/3/16
The quotes in the I Can Do It calendar can provoke so much thought. They help me remember that we are not going through this human journey by ourselves. To keep in mind that we always have help and that all we have to do is ask for it and be willing to receive it – even if that help comes in the most unlikely ways.
Remembering to ask for help from others, God, my angels, is something I would like to do more. To be continuously grateful for the many miracles and coincidences my life brings me.
Remembering also that everything happens in its perfect timing. Our timing is not always God’s timing. This lesson pops up over and over for me. It is a concept that I hope to practice more often in my life.
Self-Love Journal 6/4/16
I have not been working out as much these last few days because I had hurt my back and neck with carrying MJ around so much last weekend. I know that I need to make some more changes to my workout routine and also take a closer look at what I am eating. I also need to reevaluate my daily routine.
First of all my workout routine has been good and I can see a significant difference in my arms, abs, and my legs. I want to continue to see changes in that area, but I need to step it up.
Gary has agreed to work out a couple of nights a week with me. This will help with my desire to change it up and hopefully push myself more. However, I want to add more cardio as well.
I think for the time being I will do the following morning workouts, and anything I do with Gary will be a bonus.
Sunday – Rest day
Monday – Walk/run and abs
Tuesday – Arms and legs
Wednesday – Walk/run and abs
Thursday – Rest Day
Friday – Arms and legs
Saturday – Video Workout
I also want to take a look at what I am eating and drinking closer. As much as I think I am eating right, I would probably be surprised. We have six weeks before our summer vacation, and I am going to take this time to track what I eat and when. I will make Saturdays my break day for this.
I also think I have been ignoring my spiritual side, and I would like to spend more time nurturing this part of me. I know that journaling is part of it, but I am going to start taking 30 minutes after my workouts to journal and also to meditate. If I get up by 6:15, I should still be able to be in the shower every day by 8 am.
Self-Love Journal 6/6/16
What a cool date. I love when dates have three similar numbers, and I guess I am lucky that I am not superstitious. I am sitting outside drinking some new organic coffee that Gary brought home for me to try. I am the only coffee drinker in the house but am lucky because Gary always picks some up for me. He got me an excellent organic coffee this time that comes in sustainable Keurig cups.
It rained hard last night, and we are under a Tropical Storm warning for TS Collin. I heard somewhere that Jacksonville would find its self in the path of more storms this year, and that may be true. I don’t think they’ve experienced many storms for quite some time. Not in the three years I have lived here anyway. Wow, it is hard to believe that I moved here three years ago.
Today I am going to read for a few minutes and then I am going to do an abs workout and meditate.
I’m super happy with the way my body is toning up, and I know that if I could slim down a few pounds that I would be even happier. Gary is on board with me. I told him I would be calorie counting for 4-6 weeks, and it is nice that he is so supportive of what I want to do. I am sure it helps too that I don’t push what I am doing on everyone. However, maybe I can be a better influence anyway.
