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Self-Love Journal 11/11/16
OH! I love today’s date! I see the numbers 1111 all of the time and whenever I do it brings me peace and knowledge that I am on the right track and that what I seek is also seeking me.
Yesterday I completed one of the sales stories I have been working on. I feel very good about that and today I am going to focus on making a ton of phone calls until about 3 pm. At that point I am going to go for another run and then come home, go grocery shopping and make dinner.
In Winning the Game of Weight Loss I am working on releasing old stories and excuses. I have stayed on this level for longer than a week because I have felt some resistance to it. It is funny how we choose to hold on to behaviors that no longer serve us. I have made so much progress but then I get to a certain point and all of my old programming screams and throws a fit that it is uncomfortable and doesn’t want to change.
I know that in order to make lasting changes and to release all of the weight I want to be my naturally thin self that I need to release my grip on these old stories and excuses as well.
I have done a lot of work on this but it is obvious to me that there is still work for me to do here. Instead of beating myself up for sliding into old behaviors. I start to see progress and it is like part of me says ok that’s good but it is too scary too continue. Stop and go back to what is comfortable.
I can see that I do this same behavior in all areas of my life and even though it frustrates me and I don’t want to do it – it keeps happening, over and over.
This morning I am going to work a little more on releasing this old story and pattern of behavior.
I acknowledge and thank the past stories and patterns of behavior. They have served their purpose and have taught me many lessons about myself. It is okay now for me to release my story of Self sabotage with regards to my weight, my health and my success.
Thank you and good bye to all of the stories that don’t serve me.
Thank you and good bye to all of the stories that don’t serve me.
Thank you and good bye to all of the stories that don’t serve me.
I put these stories in the basket of a hot air balloon and see myself cutting the rope and letting them float off into the sky. I feel relieved and a little scared and empty as well. I am nervous about the future. These stories were comforting and something I knew. They were reliable and predictable and now I don’t know what the future holds.
So now I will write my new story to Enlaces my old programming. This will help me fill that emptiness and give me something known and predictable again. Even though it is new.
I now have the unwavering determination and persistence to release and move away from my old stories that do not serve me and have kept me from obtaining my naturally thin body, perfect health and continued success with all of my endeavors.
I now have the unwavering determination and persistence to release and move away from my old stories that do not serve me and have kept me from obtaining my naturally thin body, perfect health and continued success with all of my endeavors
I now have the unwavering determination and persistence to release and move away from my old stories that do not serve me and have kept me from obtaining my naturally thin body, perfect health and continued success with all of my endeavors.
I now choose to use the power within me to release my excuses and to positively script my new story and Self-love image to easily become my naturally thin self and to be perfectly healthy and extremely successful and abundant.
I now choose to use the power within me to release my excuses and to positively script my new story and self-image to easily become my naturally thin self and to be perfectly healthy and extremely successful.
I now choose to use the power within me to release my excuses and to positively script my new story and self-image to easily become my naturally thin self and to be perfectly healthy and extremely successful.
I love being certain and totally confident that I am winning the games of weight release, perfect health and unlimited success.
I love being certain and totally confident that I am winning the games of weight release, perfect health and unlimited success.
I love being certain and totally confident that I am winning the games of weight release, perfect health and unlimited success.
Self-Love Journal 11/14/16
I spent yesterday editing self-love journals and what I realized is that I do have a routine that leads to success and when I deviate I see the affects in my life in a multitude of ways.
When I get caught up in distractions like books, TV, Facebook and other stuff. I sometimes just need a break and sometimes these distractions are a way for me to avoid real life though.
Today is a new day. It is a new start and I am grateful that I am more aware about what works for me and what doesn’t.
I haven’t lost any additional weight these last few weeks but I also have not gained any. I felt myself coming back to an awareness of my body yesterday that I have not had for a few weeks. I have felt hungry and not satisfied for a while and I haven’t been able to get out of the vicious circle because underneath I just really didn’t want to. It wasn’t until I was rereading my journals and seeing the success I was having following my formula that I really decided to do what it takes again. Today is a new day and I wish that I could go run this morning. I have a dentist appt though so maybe I will at lunch or maybe even tonight after work.
More importantly though I am journaling again and I will do my meditations and tapping today.
The other part of what I learned is how important journaling is for my journey. I have had it in the back of my mind that as this project ends I can stop the daily journaling for a while. I realized that when I don’t journal I am travel through life more unawares and my journaling keeps me in the moment and brings a consciousness to my life and my actions that is not there without it.
GOOP
My Goals today are to have all of my dreaded tasks completed early and to be super productive on the phone. I want to listen to two meditations and tap as well as complete one of my additional learning projects that I have for this month.
My obstacles will really just be my own mind wanting to avoid my projects or to avoid staying productive.
I can create a positive outcome by focusing on the end results for each project. FI using on how I will feel at the end of the day knowing that I have been uber productive
My plan today is to get all projects that I have been dreading completed before lunch. After lunch I will be super focused on phone calls to clients who are on my follow up calendar and also to new prospects. I will also get a short run completed and set an alarm to get up and move around every 50 minutes.
Self-Love Journal 11/15/16
I wonder if there is energy around dates. I feel like I am going through a transformation and am at the edge of a precipice. Then I look back in time and I realize that it was during this week 3 years ago that I was doing the same. In fact all of the months leading up to this are very similar. Different scenes but similarities just the same. It is as if I know that I am leading into something big but I am not quite sure yet how my life is going to be affected. Just like back then, I know that I am going to be okay but I am dragging my feet and resisting all of the same. What I did not realize until just now is that just like three years ago, what is being born now is going to be so much better than what came before. What I haven’t realized is just how big the blessing is on the other end of this spectrum. I still do not see it in its entirety but I am at peace to realize that my dreams are being realized in a more brilliant fashion than I ever dreamed of and I dream pretty big! I know this because three years ago I dreamed of the relationship I wanted with my future partner and I not only got this dream but I received so much more! My dreams now are of our future, of our careers, our life at the beach and travel. Of enjoying life, celebrating our families and making a difference in the lives of those we connect with. This dream excites me and is what keeps me moving forward day after day.
The last few days I have been pulling random cards from my Law of Attraction and Wayne Dyer Inspiration cards. Yesterday I also pulled a rune. I don’t often do this and maybe I should. However, I have been drawn to hear another message and I used these to be able to listen. My thought in drawing these was to find out what I have needed to learn.
My first card was “Universe – The universe will show me the right path to take to reach my goal.”
My second card from an entirely different deck was “Believe in Universal Timing – You must believe in a Universe that’s created and guided by intelligence greater than your ego – a Universe where there can be no accidents. When an idea’s time has come, it can’t be stopped. And the reverse of this is true: An idea whose time hasn’t come can’t be created.
I pulled these cards on Sunday and then worked all day on the Self-Love Project. I do not know if they are referring to this project or not though. Later, as I was making dinner I wanted to listen to a new book on Audible. I searched for Louise Hay and was pulled to an audio called “The Totality of Possibility”. This turned out not to be a book but from a lecture that Louise had given. She talks about tools that we have to create a world of possibilities, how our words and thoughts create our realities. From everything I have gone through in this past twenty years, I am in complete agreement. However, I now know that there is a tool just as important, if not more so and that is our feelings. Louise talks about how our feelings create vibrations that connect us to every other living being on the planet that is experiencing those same vibrations. She talks about the Universe and how it provides us a Totality of Possibilities.
Yesterday, I drew the Rune Isa – This Rune can announce a time of restoration and renewal at the deepest levels. It talks about not stubbornly persisting to work my own will. To remain mindful that the seed of the new is present in the shell of the old, the seed of unrealized potential, the seed of the good. To trust my own process and watch for signs of spring.
I am not sure what the totality of possibility here is. However, I do know that I can try to remember what it is like to just be and let God. This is exactly where I am at. I let go of all of my expectations of the Self-Love Journal and my process within it. I let go of all expectations of my career and of moving to the beach and of being able to travel. I let go of expectations of my relationships with those that I love and care for. I trust in my process and will continue to do what I believe works for me. It does not matter if I see results or not. I trust that I will know when spring is coming and that I have planted enough seeds and tended them with enough love and devotion to watch them flourish. This will happen in the Universe’s timing and not my own. I am perfectly content with that.
I had a call with Vickie Griffith and I am very grateful that she is so intuitive and in listening to me for a few minutes she can get down to the nitty gritty and figure out exactly what is blocking me. Every once in a while we meet someone who is very very good at their chosen career. This is Vickie. She can easily read what is going on for me and gives me practical solutions to go through, over and around whatever is blocking me.
Today she brought to my attention that I have never been satisfied and have never felt like I had done enough. This is my MO. It is who I have been for longer than I can even remember.
Vickie and I tapped on this for a while and she suggested that I start a gratitude list of being enough, having enough, achieving enough, doing enough.
Self-Love Journal 11/16/16
I am sitting outside watching the sunrise this morning. It is chilly and I have on sweats, a sweatshirt and I am under a blanket. It is worth the fresh air though.
Things that I did well yesterday are:
The email I crafted to customers sharing the 31 conditions our product can be used for and the comparison that I included.
My phone call to Vickie was impact full and insightful.
My run and weight workout last night – I didn’t give up, I wasn’t in the mood but I still did it.
I am grateful that I am enough.
I am thankful that I am satisfied with my best being good enough.
I am grateful that even though my best changes day to day that it is still enough.
I am thankful that I can learn to be satisfied with what I have and yet still do my best.
I am grateful that I have had such amazing teachers through this journey.
I am grateful that today is going to be phenomenal.
I am grateful that I can still enjoy spending time outside.
GOOP
Today my goal is to just do my best in everything I do and to learn to be satisfied with this being enough. My obstacles will be my mind. Getting down on myself if things don’t go my way or as I would like them to. I envision me asking myself if this is the best I can do and what can I learn from the situation to make it better next time. I will try to stop focusing on the outcomes and just focus on being satisfied with giving my best.
This is a switch in thinking that I will need to figure out. I can feel that the success is in being satisfied that my best is good enough. But how do I do the GOOP and plan my goals and outcomes. How do I mix these two together?
Will just envisioning me doing my best with my tasks be enough?
I have to believe that it will be. I have an overwhelming urge to say yes, yes, yes. It is like all of the cards I have been drawing are telling me that all I have to do is my best and release all expectations of the outcome to the universe.
During my call with Vickie yesterday and later thinking about everything I had the distinct impression that if I do this and release everything else that my results will actually be better and more phenomenal than I could ever dream of.
So I guess I put GOOP aside right now and I focus on one big thing.
I AM SATISFIED THAT MY BEST IS ENOUGH!!!! I realize that my best will change from day to day and moment to moment. But by always giving my best, my best will get better and better. I release all expectations and allow the universe the space to help me create the best possible results. I let go now so that I can be open to receive the totality of possibilities.
Later…
I have spent all day thinking about my messages from the last several days and I really feel like I do understand what the universe is trying to tell me.
I need to just do my best and leave the rest up to the universe. Do my best and let go and let God.
This is what I kept reminding myself all day. This is liberating in many ways. Silly because when I do my best I get to release all worry and expectations of what should happen, the results I should see, etc. In addition it pushes me a little more. Not that I ever really slack but I am sure there are many things I could do better. Today my focus was on doing my best at all times and I feel that I accomplished that and was successful. I have had a fairly good month of far. I will need to see better results to achieve goals. However, instead of being stressed I am actually looking forward to see the blessings that will happen from reflecting expectations and removing the pressures.
Self-Love Journal 11/17/16
I am at the chapter in Having It All where John Assaraf talks about goal setting. This is what he says about a study done with Harvard graduates. “The group with goals earned an average of three times the income of the group without them.”
Interesting, I think. Now comes the blow-away.
“The remaining three percent of the graduates who had specific goals and wrote them down earned an average of ten times what the goals group did.”
I have set goals throughout my entire life. However, my mindset often goes to what I am doing is not enough. If I reach the goal, I want more. If I don’t reach the goal, than I am not enough.
I think what I will do is continue to set monthly and annual goals and then daily work on just doing my best. I can do a GOOP for the month and for the year.
I am grateful that yesterday I really felt that I was doing my best and I am satisfied that is enough.
I am grateful that I enjoy what I do for work.
I am grateful that I am enough.
I am grateful for my meditations and innercises.
I am grateful that I am enough just as I am.
I am grateful that the universe has my back.
I am grateful that the universe loves me.
I am grateful that I am learning to believe in myself.
While continuing to read. I see this and it is like duh.
I am learning that setting goals is not about hard work. It’s about surrendering to the universe and allowing it to bring you what you want by setting up your brain and behaviors to align with your goals.
Surrendering is what I am learning to do now and it is what I have struggled with so long. Now I understand how setting goals and just doing my best while surrendering to the outcome plays into it. For right now since I have difficulty surrendering I feel that my plan of monthly and yearly goals is a sound plan. If I set daily goals it is likely that I will fail more often than not at surrendering and allowing the universe to assist me.
My goals will still be specific and they will also include the why of the goal. The ultimate desire.
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Self-Love Takeaways
- I AM SATISFIED THAT MY BEST IS ENOUGH!!!! I realize that my best will change from day to day and moment to moment. But by always giving my best, my best will get better and better. I release all expectations and allow the universe the space to help me create the best possible results. I let go now so that I can be open to receive the totality of possibilities.
- Goal Setting – Setting monthly and annual goals and surrendering the daily outcome.